[ if keigo grants dabi his final wish, a letter probably wouldn't matter. he probably wouldn't read it anyway. it would only be for keigo's guilty conscience in the end. if he really wanted to work this out, he wouldn't be walking away right now.
dabi feels like a fool, having given keigo another chance after everything, but keigo using the excuse of dabi being an asshole to turn it down. dabi's always been an asshole, and he sees now that keigo never really did want that chance to begin with. walking away was always going to be what keigo picked when it came to him. ]
I didn't always believe you were a spy and ya fuckin' know it. You manipulated me with your lies until I believed ya. You gave me your name and your home and I wasn't the one who betrayed you! And here I was about to fall for it again. I really am a fuckin' idiot, huh.
[but keigo doesn't care what it all meant to him and how he twisted it around. he's still trying to act like he did the right thing. and in the end, it wasn't about anything but keigo's precious heroes. dabi knows that now too and there's nothing left to argue.
he had wanted to believe so badly that there could be a different outcome, but it was never going to be him.
that final nod of keigo's head, telling him that betraying him was worth it, it sort of settles something inside of him. with those words he knows that no matter what he would have done, it would have ended up like this. keigo was going to save the world, and that wasn't ever going to include him. he was always going to betray dabi in the end.
dabi should have trusted his instincts, but he opened himself up, opened his heart up, and now he can close it again. it's a good way to die, he thinks to himself as he drives off. ]
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Date: 2021-03-04 01:55 am (UTC)dabi feels like a fool, having given keigo another chance after everything, but keigo using the excuse of dabi being an asshole to turn it down. dabi's always been an asshole, and he sees now that keigo never really did want that chance to begin with. walking away was always going to be what keigo picked when it came to him. ]
I didn't always believe you were a spy and ya fuckin' know it. You manipulated me with your lies until I believed ya. You gave me your name and your home and I wasn't the one who betrayed you! And here I was about to fall for it again. I really am a fuckin' idiot, huh.
[but keigo doesn't care what it all meant to him and how he twisted it around. he's still trying to act like he did the right thing. and in the end, it wasn't about anything but keigo's precious heroes. dabi knows that now too and there's nothing left to argue.
he had wanted to believe so badly that there could be a different outcome, but it was never going to be him.
that final nod of keigo's head, telling him that betraying him was worth it, it sort of settles something inside of him. with those words he knows that no matter what he would have done, it would have ended up like this. keigo was going to save the world, and that wasn't ever going to include him. he was always going to betray dabi in the end.
dabi should have trusted his instincts, but he opened himself up, opened his heart up, and now he can close it again. it's a good way to die, he thinks to himself as he drives off. ]