I'm talking about how no matter how bad things get, we have to stay. We have nowhere else to go. And when we're done here? I'm just gonna...
[he trails off, letting out another sob, fire sparking through his fingers. he yanks himself away from keigo then, because his fear of hurting keigo overrides everything else.
he wipes at his eyes quickly, angrily, trying to pull himself back together so he can talk to keigo without catching them both on fire.]
They told me... they told me we have to act like villains. We have to be villains. We can practice with each other, yeah, but then... we have to attack other submissives. They have to attack you too. You gotta talk them down and work your way to pleasing them. It's not just gonna be me. It was never just gonna be me. And I have to do that to other kids too. I can't, Keigo... I can't. I don't wanna be like my dad. I don't wanna be a villain. I can't. I can't let everyone else do that to you. They're gonna hurt you! I wanted it to just be us!
[keigo can't find the words to say. stay within this program forever? that sounded insane! he could understand himself, considering they bought him from his mother, but the others here...they weren't bought, right?
they were all supposed to be heroes.
so lost in thought, he doesn't notice when touya pulls away until the other youth begins to continue. and if he thought hearing the fact that they would never be able to escape was insane, what touya comes to admit sends a chill down keigo's spine. he searches his friend's eyes, hoping to see if it's not true, but touya never lies to him. and, even if he did, this would definitely not be something to lie about.
a feeling settles in the pit of his stomach. he can feel his wings trembling.]
Why...would they..? I don't..I don't want that for us. I don't want anyone touching me or you, Touya.
[ he can't help but let his anger show. but he knows it's going to be the truth. they won't just get to be free after this. he's starting to realize that's not how any of this works.
heroes or not, he's still pretty sure whoever is at this program was pretty much given to the people here to use as they please.
he also knows this is a stream of anger and pain and maybe he's not expressing himself the right way, but the truth of it is all still there. he knows what their handlers are going to make them do to each other.]
I knew there was more to it than that. They'd never let us just pick each other and be done with it.
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[he trails off, letting out another sob, fire sparking through his fingers. he yanks himself away from keigo then, because his fear of hurting keigo overrides everything else.
he wipes at his eyes quickly, angrily, trying to pull himself back together so he can talk to keigo without catching them both on fire.]
They told me... they told me we have to act like villains. We have to be villains. We can practice with each other, yeah, but then... we have to attack other submissives. They have to attack you too. You gotta talk them down and work your way to pleasing them. It's not just gonna be me. It was never just gonna be me. And I have to do that to other kids too. I can't, Keigo... I can't. I don't wanna be like my dad. I don't wanna be a villain. I can't. I can't let everyone else do that to you. They're gonna hurt you! I wanted it to just be us!
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[keigo can't find the words to say. stay within this program forever? that sounded insane! he could understand himself, considering they bought him from his mother, but the others here...they weren't bought, right?
they were all supposed to be heroes.
so lost in thought, he doesn't notice when touya pulls away until the other youth begins to continue. and if he thought hearing the fact that they would never be able to escape was insane, what touya comes to admit sends a chill down keigo's spine. he searches his friend's eyes, hoping to see if it's not true, but touya never lies to him. and, even if he did, this would definitely not be something to lie about.
a feeling settles in the pit of his stomach. he can feel his wings trembling.]
Why...would they..? I don't..I don't want that for us. I don't want anyone touching me or you, Touya.
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[ he can't help but let his anger show. but he knows it's going to be the truth. they won't just get to be free after this. he's starting to realize that's not how any of this works.
heroes or not, he's still pretty sure whoever is at this program was pretty much given to the people here to use as they please.
he also knows this is a stream of anger and pain and maybe he's not expressing himself the right way, but the truth of it is all still there. he knows what their handlers are going to make them do to each other.]
I knew there was more to it than that. They'd never let us just pick each other and be done with it.