[ dabi doesn't expect keigo to understand. he never really understood before either, if he really thinks about it. maybe once keigo stuck here long enough he'll get it... or maybe it won't ever have to come down to that. maybe keigo will be able to get away. at least him. he knows he can't just give up for both of the, no matter what he says to his father.
but for him? he knows it's a lost cause. they can't both get out of here in one piece.
right now though, he feels utterly hopeless. all of this feels like a nightmare come to life. even if keigo eventually is able to get away, who knows how broken he'll be by then? all he can do is try to keep things from getting even worse. that's why it hurts when keigo doesn't seem to understand even that.]
No. No. I won't let him. If you do that... then I might as well be dead. Then everything i just did was for nothing. Ain't it bad enough? I can't... I can't watch him do that to ya. I might as well be fuckin' dead.
[he did everything he could to keep that from happening and keigo would just throw it all away? for what? dabi has already been through it all, he's been through the worst of it. he can't have this taken from him on top of it all.
he isn't even sure what to say after that. he just let's keigo take his hands to put them in his lap, and as much as he wants to tug them away, he doesn't. he needs keigo to know that it matters to him to have him out of his father's grasp, even if he can't show it in any other way right now.
he still can't look at keigo, but he gives him a small nod, trying not to flinch. he really has to pull himself back together. if he flinches in front of his father, he knows the older man will take advantage of that too.]
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but for him? he knows it's a lost cause. they can't both get out of here in one piece.
right now though, he feels utterly hopeless. all of this feels like a nightmare come to life. even if keigo eventually is able to get away, who knows how broken he'll be by then? all he can do is try to keep things from getting even worse. that's why it hurts when keigo doesn't seem to understand even that.]
No. No. I won't let him. If you do that... then I might as well be dead. Then everything i just did was for nothing. Ain't it bad enough? I can't... I can't watch him do that to ya. I might as well be fuckin' dead.
[he did everything he could to keep that from happening and keigo would just throw it all away? for what? dabi has already been through it all, he's been through the worst of it. he can't have this taken from him on top of it all.
he isn't even sure what to say after that. he just let's keigo take his hands to put them in his lap, and as much as he wants to tug them away, he doesn't. he needs keigo to know that it matters to him to have him out of his father's grasp, even if he can't show it in any other way right now.
he still can't look at keigo, but he gives him a small nod, trying not to flinch. he really has to pull himself back together. if he flinches in front of his father, he knows the older man will take advantage of that too.]
He'll be back soon.