[ hopefully it'll make sense to him sooner rather than later, because it wasn't any kind of small thing what dabi just did here, and now he feels rejected for it.
all the pro-heroes, all of the commission, they're already coming after him. they've been coming after him before he even knew keigo. he's a villain, in the most wanted terrorist group in japan. what exactly has keigo thought the heroes have been doing to them all this time??
dabi's entire world is reeling now. at least keigo knew what he was doing. he knew what his deception was and where it would lead. he was after this very thing from both dabi and the rest of them. dabi fell right for it, and maybe he's falling for it again. his world is crumbling, and yet he's the one who has to get them out of this mess now, because keigo is... dabi doesn't know what keigo is doing, but he doesn't understand it.
this is what he wanted. this was keig's goal, he wanted to be saved. he put them in danger and didn't really give a shit what would happen to dabi in the end, seeing as he only told him all of this now. and yet when dabi wants to do for him exactly what keigo wanted, he's acting like a goddamn martyr.
maybe that's what is making him angriest of all. it feels like it was all for nothing.
having to walk away a second time is almost worse than the first, because he tried. he put his fucking heart on his sleeve again and keigo pulled away from him. he tries to tell himself that it doesn't matter. none of this matters. he only had one goal and he should have stuck to it. he can be that way again. he can flush out all the softness that somehow seeped into his cracks, and harden his heart again. and if endeavor already knows who he is, then he only has one job left anyway, and then he can be done.
he doesn't expect keigo to be at his heels a moment later, but he doesn't feel relief. his heart feels too battered for it now. when he first went back for keigo he might've at least been able to pretend everything was okay between the two of them for prying eyes, but now... he doesn't know if he can pull it off. maybe it'll just look like they're having a fight. it wouldn't be the first time, even if they've never really been out in public while going through something like that.
he leads them into the service elevator and fixes his own disguise, then stands back and watches the numbers as they go down. ]
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Date: 2021-05-01 03:43 pm (UTC)all the pro-heroes, all of the commission, they're already coming after him. they've been coming after him before he even knew keigo. he's a villain, in the most wanted terrorist group in japan. what exactly has keigo thought the heroes have been doing to them all this time??
dabi's entire world is reeling now. at least keigo knew what he was doing. he knew what his deception was and where it would lead. he was after this very thing from both dabi and the rest of them. dabi fell right for it, and maybe he's falling for it again. his world is crumbling, and yet he's the one who has to get them out of this mess now, because keigo is... dabi doesn't know what keigo is doing, but he doesn't understand it.
this is what he wanted. this was keig's goal, he wanted to be saved. he put them in danger and didn't really give a shit what would happen to dabi in the end, seeing as he only told him all of this now. and yet when dabi wants to do for him exactly what keigo wanted, he's acting like a goddamn martyr.
maybe that's what is making him angriest of all. it feels like it was all for nothing.
having to walk away a second time is almost worse than the first, because he tried. he put his fucking heart on his sleeve again and keigo pulled away from him. he tries to tell himself that it doesn't matter. none of this matters. he only had one goal and he should have stuck to it. he can be that way again. he can flush out all the softness that somehow seeped into his cracks, and harden his heart again. and if endeavor already knows who he is, then he only has one job left anyway, and then he can be done.
he doesn't expect keigo to be at his heels a moment later, but he doesn't feel relief. his heart feels too battered for it now. when he first went back for keigo he might've at least been able to pretend everything was okay between the two of them for prying eyes, but now... he doesn't know if he can pull it off. maybe it'll just look like they're having a fight. it wouldn't be the first time, even if they've never really been out in public while going through something like that.
he leads them into the service elevator and fixes his own disguise, then stands back and watches the numbers as they go down. ]