[he just needs dabi to listen, to give him the chance to speak and tell him everything. but it was practically impossible last night in words alone, and now with just the phone, it's more than difficult.
he's not saying what he did was brilliant or even right, but keigo had to be careful. he always had to look out for himself. he never had anyone else to look out for before dabi came along.
he's getting so lost as the villain starts though, anger apparently leading him to talk over keigo. the hero can only manage to listen, wishing his voice would just work as he tries to mouth what he wants to say. going back into that spiral is ripping him apart, but he knows he's not the only one feeling it. he knows dabi must be breaking apart. he knows how the villain operates.
it's becoming too much, and keigo can't help but shout.]
I-!..I-..I'm not-! [his breath is so coarse, throat on fire but keigo ignores it, works with the pain so he can speak.] I'm n-not saying..not blaming-!...I had to learn to trust you..I had to know for sure..I don't-I'm not blaming any of it on you! I was just..I never trusted anyone before you. That's why, at the beginning, I didn't say it!
[his handlers worked with villains. he knows this because he's been given to a few. at the beginning of it all, he had to be absolutely positive they weren't testing his loyalty. that's what he's trying to explain here. he never once would place any kind of blame on dabi for his own insecurities.
his throat burns hot, but keigo keeps going, scared that if he stops, it'll hurt more.]
I-..I brought Endeavor up because they..my handlers, they were threatening you! They were..going to kill or cap..ture...you.
[briefly, he coughs and quickly comes to apply pressure to his throat, digging sharp nails into his own burnt skin. blood is in his mouth, but keigo ignores it, keeps talking.]
Told me I had to..to tell Endeavor about the meta army...or they would go after you.
[he inhales some air, and it hurts more than any sort of relief.]
So..I told him. I told him the size of the army..and a date to attack.
[another series of coughs and keigo spits blood onto the ground to get the taste out of his mouth. he breathes heavily again, head bowed, staring at the splatter of blood.]
I never...wanted you, or the others, to get caught. But you..you needed a doctor. That's why I pushed..for you to go back to get help. I wouldn't want..Endeavor anywhere near you.
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Date: 2021-05-13 01:13 am (UTC)he's not saying what he did was brilliant or even right, but keigo had to be careful. he always had to look out for himself. he never had anyone else to look out for before dabi came along.
he's getting so lost as the villain starts though, anger apparently leading him to talk over keigo. the hero can only manage to listen, wishing his voice would just work as he tries to mouth what he wants to say. going back into that spiral is ripping him apart, but he knows he's not the only one feeling it. he knows dabi must be breaking apart. he knows how the villain operates.
it's becoming too much, and keigo can't help but shout.]
I-!..I-..I'm not-! [his breath is so coarse, throat on fire but keigo ignores it, works with the pain so he can speak.] I'm n-not saying..not blaming-!...I had to learn to trust you..I had to know for sure..I don't-I'm not blaming any of it on you! I was just..I never trusted anyone before you. That's why, at the beginning, I didn't say it!
[his handlers worked with villains. he knows this because he's been given to a few. at the beginning of it all, he had to be absolutely positive they weren't testing his loyalty. that's what he's trying to explain here. he never once would place any kind of blame on dabi for his own insecurities.
his throat burns hot, but keigo keeps going, scared that if he stops, it'll hurt more.]
I-..I brought Endeavor up because they..my handlers, they were threatening you! They were..going to kill or cap..ture...you.
[briefly, he coughs and quickly comes to apply pressure to his throat, digging sharp nails into his own burnt skin. blood is in his mouth, but keigo ignores it, keeps talking.]
Told me I had to..to tell Endeavor about the meta army...or they would go after you.
[he inhales some air, and it hurts more than any sort of relief.]
So..I told him. I told him the size of the army..and a date to attack.
[another series of coughs and keigo spits blood onto the ground to get the taste out of his mouth. he breathes heavily again, head bowed, staring at the splatter of blood.]
I never...wanted you, or the others, to get caught. But you..you needed a doctor. That's why I pushed..for you to go back to get help. I wouldn't want..Endeavor anywhere near you.