[keigo is practically cut off guard by dabi's statement. he stills himself, trying to search the former villain's features, trying to understand why.
no. he understands completely why.
because keigo feels the same way.]
You can't...He'll end up killing you. I can't stand by and watch him torture you. It's going to kill me too.
[gods. how can he protect dabi when his former lover won't allow it? naturally, keigo is terrified of being with someone like endeavor, especially now. there's really only one person he wants. yet, how much longer until that's ruined too? he's sure that monster of a man will just do whatever he wants, even with his or dabi's intervention.
keigo can't think right now about it. he needed to hurry and get his former lover cleaned up.]
Lets..discuss it later.
[because dabi is right. endeavor will be back soon. so, keigo busies himself with wiping away the blood on the other male's features. once dabi's face is clean, he goes for his hands next. he stumbles though, while hurrying, because he can hear those footsteps starting to get louder, angrier even. keigo has never felt such intense and growing fear before. he's beginning to shake while tying the fabric in place, hoping endeavor will be in a better mood than earlier.]
He's been doin' it for longer than you'll ever know, Keigo. What the fuck difference does it make anymore? What good is it if he ruins you too? Then you're really lettin' him win. haven't you already done enough?
[if endeavor takes keigo from him too? then he'll have won completely. then what's the point of ever even trying anymore? what was the point of any of this?
he suddenly feels more tired, exhausted and beat down than he's felt since he got stuck back here. he realizes he's not only gonna have to fight his father, but keigo too. just the very thought of that makes him feel so tired to his bones. keigo is the one who put him here. he practically gave him right back to his father, and now he wants to play the hero? it's too late, dabi wants to tell him. he doesn't want to lose the only thing he has left after all of this. if endeavor hurts keigo the same way his father hurts him, he wont make it through that. neither of them will.]
There's nothin' to discuss. If ya let him use you just to try'n protect me, I'll never talk to you again. I won't even look at you.
[and because that seems unfair when dabi can't even look at keigo now, he forces himself to lift his gaze and look keigo in the eye, despite all the shame he's feeling right now. he needs keigo to know he's serious, and it helps him feel a little stronger once again, even if he knows it'll all get pulled out from under him once endeavor comes through those doors again.
he remembers when he used to be as frightened as keigo is now. it's such a deep, visceral fear. over the years the abuse was so constant that dabi's pretty sure he got used to the fear in a dark, sick way, but now he feels it in keigo and he takes his hands, stopping him once he's done fixing him up. he doesn't know what to say, because nothing can make this easier or better. he can't even say that at least they're together, because he doesn't want them to be. not like this. ]
[it's hard to not wince and almost pull away from such a reply. it's already eating him up inside that he's one of the reasons dabi is here being tortured. in a way, it also makes him just want to ignore the former villain's desire to handle endeavor all on his own. yeah. he might have done enough, but at the same time, if he can keep dabi from being hurt, then he'll deal with the consequences.
but, then the threat is there, and keigo catches dabi's gaze when the other male finally comes to greet his features for the first time in a long while.
this time, it's keigo who fixes his gaze away, biting down on his bottom lip from responding. he wasn't going to discuss it any further.
he's terrified of being alone in all of this though. if dabi doesn't ever talk to him or look at him...what if keigo can't get dabi to follow through with an escape plan? it could backfire for both of them. he could potentially get one or both killed for it. no. he had to be smart about this. however, he wasn't going to sugarcoat how upset he is about dabi's response.
yet, his features do come to soften beneath the fear of endeavor and troubled feelings regarding dabi when hands come to take his. he still can't meet that gaze or return to looking over those facial features he just cleaned up. golden irises do come to look at their hands though, right as he hears the apology. for what, keigo isn't sure. could be for the threat, or to maybe ease the former hero's terror regarding endeavor.
he doesn't have any time to question it though, because the door opens from behind them, and the heat of the number one hero's presence is suddenly there, staring angrily down at the two. he's still shirtless, fire glowing over his body. the door comes to shut behind them, locked for good measure. "your pet bird cost me a pretty penny, touya." the hero comes to say, crossing his arms. "one you will be repaying for."
he doesn't give further information regarding it though, blue, intense eyes scanning down at the ground, to the shredded material of his shirt. "...pathetic. i warned you about teaching him house rules, didn't i?" he growls, narrowing his gaze, frown deepening.
naturally, he can't expect touya to listen properly. his eldest child seemed to enjoy breaking the rules himself.]
[ an escape plan seems so completely impossible now that dabi doesn't even think of it. he had already given up long before this, until he had this one chance that was quickly destroyed. maybe he'll find a way to get keigo out, but right now he just doesn't see how. it's all so hopeless.
he doesn't want to not talk to keigo, so he hopes the other man follows through with his wishes. dabi could at least be defiant to an extent when keigo wasn't here. but now? now if he even looks at endeavor the wrong way, the older man could use keigo against him. he desperately doesn't want that to happen.
their time alone is running out, and dabi closes his eyes when he hears the footsteps getting closer. he pulls his hands away from keigo quickly, tensing up hard when the door opens again and endeavor bellows down at them. his words don't surprise him at all. dabi knows he'll be paying for everything. ]
You told us to stay, we didn't move. What the hell else do ya want me to tell him?
[he looks up at the man tiredly. he wonders if he'll even be able to get back on his feet.]
[he's suddenly alone and by himself again when dabi pulls away, but keigo can't blame him. they had to be careful around endeavor. still, a part of him is defiant, looking up at the number one hero even if his eyes betray how terrified he was.
he keeps his lips shut as endeavor speaks, with dabi's haughty replies coming right in. it makes him tense up though, especially when he sees the flicker of anger within endeavor's gaze.
all too quick, the number one hero snaps forward, sending a punch right at his son's jaw. keigo can't stop himself from trying to not reach out, yet a large hand grabs him by the hair, pulling him back, and closer to endeavor's body.]
S-Stop! He..I was told to behave! He told me to follow your rules!
[keigo talks without thinking, hoping it'd be enough to calm the grip of the monster down. he can feel his hair begin practically pulled from his scalp. but, the tugging lessens a bit, though endeavor's grip remains there.
from behind keigo, endeavor glares heavily at his eldest son. the punch was more for the attitude than anything else. he's not sure whether to believe the fallen hero either. for all he knows, these two could have conspired against him. not that they can get away with anything. they're both essentially quirkless.
"on your feet, touya." a feat he believes his son will fail in, but endeavor wasn't merciless. he lives to watch and inflict pain. "or i'll have your bird clean up the mess you're leaving all over my floor."]
[ dabi is taken aback by the force of the punch to his face, staples ripping along his cheek and blood filling his mouth immediately. he lifts his hand to his pace, ready to glare hard, but keigo gets grabbed instead and dabi tenses hard, trying to gather the strength to get up.
in his head, he'd love nothing more than to beat the shit out of his father. he has visions of being able to strangle him and watch his eyes roll to the back of his head.
for once though, it doesn't get worse right away, but dabi knows better than to say anything when keigo is far too close to endeavor, still completely naked. at those words, he knows he has to act, and he starts to try and push himself up to stand, pain shooting through his whole body. he barely makes it up before he collapses back down again, but then he squeezes his eyes shut and tries again. the last thing he wants is for keigo to have to clean up his blood and cum from the floor. this is bad enough as it is.
when he's almost standing he opens his eyes, but his vision is swimming from that punch to the face. when was the last time he even ate? he doesn't remember, but it doesn't help with how everything spins in front of him. he can feel his knees getting weak, but he won't let himself fall back down. he looks at keigo instead, trying to keep his breathing steady. ]
[keigo wants to struggle and squirm, wants to tell endeavor where to shove it, but a part of him, the part that cares so deeply for dabi, keeps the former hero still. he doesn't know if he'll always behave like this and follow dabi's desire to stay out of his way in terms with the other male's father. but, for now, he plays along. he'll come to a decision about it later.
it's so hard though, when dabi gets up, only to collapse. keigo's body tenses, and he tries to inch forward, yet endeavor's grip is hard and steady. keigo doesn't fight it. for dabi's sake, again.
the former villain tries again, and this time he's standing. but, for how long? keigo seriously doubts he'll make it anywhere in that condition. the man was skin and bones. frail. doesn't even look like he's had a meal recently.
he catches dabi's eyes finally, and it's then that the grip in his hair is removed. he's a little worried about moving forward despite wanting to, desiring nothing more than to assist dabi to the best of his ability. yet, that presence behind him keeps keigo grounded where he is.
"go. off to bed. we'll discuss arrangements in the morning concerning your pet." endeavor orders with a wave of his hand, turning away. "you're sleeping here, on the mess you left in the bed."
instead of leaving as keigo predicted, the number one hero goes to a cabinet along the wall. it's locked, as endeavor produces a key and pulled out a small blue box. it's tossed to the bed, with the cabinet relocked. "here. get yourself cleaned up properly, touya. you need to look half-decent by the end of the week."]
[ if he can stay on his feet long enough to get the next order barked at him from his father, maybe he'll make it. all he can try to do is think of the next step. he's relieved when endeavor releases keigo, and it gives him the strength to try and stand a little longer. he can do it.
if he has to walk back to his room though? he's not sure he can make it that far, so he's almost relieved when endeavor says he can sleep here. they can sleep here. together? it's almost too good to be true, but dabi really does keep his mouth shut this time.
his gaze follows endeavor once again, watching as he goes to the cabinet. another bit of relief. it only makes him wary though, because nothing is given for free. he knows he'll pay for this too, tomorrow mostly likely. for now, maybe endeavor will leave them alone. at least his father has always been predictable in that sense. once he gets what he wants, he goes right back to ignoring him.]
Yes, sir.
[he grits out, wiping blood from his mouth. he's not sure what's happening at the end of the week, but he's too tired to care right now.]
[keigo is more than curious when endeavor mentions the end of the week. he wants to know. he wants to hear what arrangements will be made. while he desires to know all of this, his mouth remains shut, eyes glued on dabi, making sure the other male doesn't collapse.
endeavor comes to scoff, but doesn't state anything more, heading to the door and shoving it open. it's slammed shut and keigo can hear the few locks, deadbolts it seems, that follow.
it matters little to him because he's walking the few steps to dabi, a hand pressing gently to the former villain's upper arm while his other is held out.]
Let me help you.
[he doesn't want dabi to collapse on himself again. and he'd rather get him cleaned up, just to avoid infections. the punch did a number on dabi's face. the staples probably need to be replaced...]
[ he can hardly believe it when endeavor is gone again. maybe he won't bother them again for the rest of the night. there are times when his father can't sleep, or gets a hardon in the middle of the night, and then he comes back- but maybe tonight tired him out more than usual. dabi can only hope.
it's a good thing that keigo is at his side once he does leave, because this is about all he could stand. when keigo holds his arm out, dabi grabs it, collapsing against him instead of the floor. ]
Fuck.
[he grits out, then spits blood from his mouth to the floor. it's not like it matters much anymore. there's plenty of blood and fluids already left behind from more than one occasion.]
Didn't think I was gonna make it.
[he looks down at himself and cringes. he's still half hard, and still has fluids leaking down his legs. he feels so disgusting, but he's too tired to pull away and deal with this on his own. especially when he has keigo here wanting to help him. if he was alone he'd just drop himself down into bed, but he knows keigo probably won't let him do that. he's not too keen on staying in his filth either. he just hates how bad it all must feel for keigo.]
At least there's a bathroom connected to this bedroom. Grab the kit and walk me over there if ya can.
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no. he understands completely why.
because keigo feels the same way.]
You can't...He'll end up killing you. I can't stand by and watch him torture you. It's going to kill me too.
[gods. how can he protect dabi when his former lover won't allow it? naturally, keigo is terrified of being with someone like endeavor, especially now. there's really only one person he wants. yet, how much longer until that's ruined too? he's sure that monster of a man will just do whatever he wants, even with his or dabi's intervention.
keigo can't think right now about it. he needed to hurry and get his former lover cleaned up.]
Lets..discuss it later.
[because dabi is right. endeavor will be back soon. so, keigo busies himself with wiping away the blood on the other male's features. once dabi's face is clean, he goes for his hands next. he stumbles though, while hurrying, because he can hear those footsteps starting to get louder, angrier even. keigo has never felt such intense and growing fear before. he's beginning to shake while tying the fabric in place, hoping endeavor will be in a better mood than earlier.]
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[if endeavor takes keigo from him too? then he'll have won completely. then what's the point of ever even trying anymore? what was the point of any of this?
he suddenly feels more tired, exhausted and beat down than he's felt since he got stuck back here. he realizes he's not only gonna have to fight his father, but keigo too. just the very thought of that makes him feel so tired to his bones. keigo is the one who put him here. he practically gave him right back to his father, and now he wants to play the hero? it's too late, dabi wants to tell him. he doesn't want to lose the only thing he has left after all of this. if endeavor hurts keigo the same way his father hurts him, he wont make it through that. neither of them will.]
There's nothin' to discuss. If ya let him use you just to try'n protect me, I'll never talk to you again. I won't even look at you.
[and because that seems unfair when dabi can't even look at keigo now, he forces himself to lift his gaze and look keigo in the eye, despite all the shame he's feeling right now. he needs keigo to know he's serious, and it helps him feel a little stronger once again, even if he knows it'll all get pulled out from under him once endeavor comes through those doors again.
he remembers when he used to be as frightened as keigo is now. it's such a deep, visceral fear. over the years the abuse was so constant that dabi's pretty sure he got used to the fear in a dark, sick way, but now he feels it in keigo and he takes his hands, stopping him once he's done fixing him up. he doesn't know what to say, because nothing can make this easier or better. he can't even say that at least they're together, because he doesn't want them to be. not like this. ]
M'sorry.
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but, then the threat is there, and keigo catches dabi's gaze when the other male finally comes to greet his features for the first time in a long while.
this time, it's keigo who fixes his gaze away, biting down on his bottom lip from responding. he wasn't going to discuss it any further.
he's terrified of being alone in all of this though. if dabi doesn't ever talk to him or look at him...what if keigo can't get dabi to follow through with an escape plan? it could backfire for both of them. he could potentially get one or both killed for it. no. he had to be smart about this. however, he wasn't going to sugarcoat how upset he is about dabi's response.
yet, his features do come to soften beneath the fear of endeavor and troubled feelings regarding dabi when hands come to take his. he still can't meet that gaze or return to looking over those facial features he just cleaned up. golden irises do come to look at their hands though, right as he hears the apology. for what, keigo isn't sure. could be for the threat, or to maybe ease the former hero's terror regarding endeavor.
he doesn't have any time to question it though, because the door opens from behind them, and the heat of the number one hero's presence is suddenly there, staring angrily down at the two. he's still shirtless, fire glowing over his body. the door comes to shut behind them, locked for good measure. "your pet bird cost me a pretty penny, touya." the hero comes to say, crossing his arms. "one you will be repaying for."
he doesn't give further information regarding it though, blue, intense eyes scanning down at the ground, to the shredded material of his shirt. "...pathetic. i warned you about teaching him house rules, didn't i?" he growls, narrowing his gaze, frown deepening.
naturally, he can't expect touya to listen properly. his eldest child seemed to enjoy breaking the rules himself.]
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he doesn't want to not talk to keigo, so he hopes the other man follows through with his wishes. dabi could at least be defiant to an extent when keigo wasn't here. but now? now if he even looks at endeavor the wrong way, the older man could use keigo against him. he desperately doesn't want that to happen.
their time alone is running out, and dabi closes his eyes when he hears the footsteps getting closer. he pulls his hands away from keigo quickly, tensing up hard when the door opens again and endeavor bellows down at them. his words don't surprise him at all. dabi knows he'll be paying for everything. ]
You told us to stay, we didn't move. What the hell else do ya want me to tell him?
[he looks up at the man tiredly. he wonders if he'll even be able to get back on his feet.]
Can we go to bed? It's late.
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he keeps his lips shut as endeavor speaks, with dabi's haughty replies coming right in. it makes him tense up though, especially when he sees the flicker of anger within endeavor's gaze.
all too quick, the number one hero snaps forward, sending a punch right at his son's jaw. keigo can't stop himself from trying to not reach out, yet a large hand grabs him by the hair, pulling him back, and closer to endeavor's body.]
S-Stop! He..I was told to behave! He told me to follow your rules!
[keigo talks without thinking, hoping it'd be enough to calm the grip of the monster down. he can feel his hair begin practically pulled from his scalp. but, the tugging lessens a bit, though endeavor's grip remains there.
from behind keigo, endeavor glares heavily at his eldest son. the punch was more for the attitude than anything else. he's not sure whether to believe the fallen hero either. for all he knows, these two could have conspired against him. not that they can get away with anything. they're both essentially quirkless.
"on your feet, touya." a feat he believes his son will fail in, but endeavor wasn't merciless. he lives to watch and inflict pain. "or i'll have your bird clean up the mess you're leaving all over my floor."]
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in his head, he'd love nothing more than to beat the shit out of his father. he has visions of being able to strangle him and watch his eyes roll to the back of his head.
for once though, it doesn't get worse right away, but dabi knows better than to say anything when keigo is far too close to endeavor, still completely naked. at those words, he knows he has to act, and he starts to try and push himself up to stand, pain shooting through his whole body. he barely makes it up before he collapses back down again, but then he squeezes his eyes shut and tries again. the last thing he wants is for keigo to have to clean up his blood and cum from the floor. this is bad enough as it is.
when he's almost standing he opens his eyes, but his vision is swimming from that punch to the face. when was the last time he even ate? he doesn't remember, but it doesn't help with how everything spins in front of him. he can feel his knees getting weak, but he won't let himself fall back down. he looks at keigo instead, trying to keep his breathing steady. ]
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it's so hard though, when dabi gets up, only to collapse. keigo's body tenses, and he tries to inch forward, yet endeavor's grip is hard and steady. keigo doesn't fight it. for dabi's sake, again.
the former villain tries again, and this time he's standing. but, for how long? keigo seriously doubts he'll make it anywhere in that condition. the man was skin and bones. frail. doesn't even look like he's had a meal recently.
he catches dabi's eyes finally, and it's then that the grip in his hair is removed. he's a little worried about moving forward despite wanting to, desiring nothing more than to assist dabi to the best of his ability. yet, that presence behind him keeps keigo grounded where he is.
"go. off to bed. we'll discuss arrangements in the morning concerning your pet." endeavor orders with a wave of his hand, turning away. "you're sleeping here, on the mess you left in the bed."
instead of leaving as keigo predicted, the number one hero goes to a cabinet along the wall. it's locked, as endeavor produces a key and pulled out a small blue box. it's tossed to the bed, with the cabinet relocked. "here. get yourself cleaned up properly, touya. you need to look half-decent by the end of the week."]
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if he has to walk back to his room though? he's not sure he can make it that far, so he's almost relieved when endeavor says he can sleep here. they can sleep here. together? it's almost too good to be true, but dabi really does keep his mouth shut this time.
his gaze follows endeavor once again, watching as he goes to the cabinet. another bit of relief. it only makes him wary though, because nothing is given for free. he knows he'll pay for this too, tomorrow mostly likely. for now, maybe endeavor will leave them alone. at least his father has always been predictable in that sense. once he gets what he wants, he goes right back to ignoring him.]
Yes, sir.
[he grits out, wiping blood from his mouth. he's not sure what's happening at the end of the week, but he's too tired to care right now.]
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endeavor comes to scoff, but doesn't state anything more, heading to the door and shoving it open. it's slammed shut and keigo can hear the few locks, deadbolts it seems, that follow.
it matters little to him because he's walking the few steps to dabi, a hand pressing gently to the former villain's upper arm while his other is held out.]
Let me help you.
[he doesn't want dabi to collapse on himself again. and he'd rather get him cleaned up, just to avoid infections. the punch did a number on dabi's face. the staples probably need to be replaced...]
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it's a good thing that keigo is at his side once he does leave, because this is about all he could stand. when keigo holds his arm out, dabi grabs it, collapsing against him instead of the floor. ]
Fuck.
[he grits out, then spits blood from his mouth to the floor. it's not like it matters much anymore. there's plenty of blood and fluids already left behind from more than one occasion.]
Didn't think I was gonna make it.
[he looks down at himself and cringes. he's still half hard, and still has fluids leaking down his legs. he feels so disgusting, but he's too tired to pull away and deal with this on his own. especially when he has keigo here wanting to help him. if he was alone he'd just drop himself down into bed, but he knows keigo probably won't let him do that. he's not too keen on staying in his filth either. he just hates how bad it all must feel for keigo.]
At least there's a bathroom connected to this bedroom. Grab the kit and walk me over there if ya can.