[ maybe the problem is that keigo keeps thinking about how dabi is doing this to him. dabi can't believe keigo did this to them. ]
But I what?! You lied to me! Over and over again, I told you to tell me the fucking truth! I told ya I didn't trust you and swore you weren't a goddamn spy! Right to my fucking face until I believed you!
[keigo's tears anger him the most. this asshole, pulling all this shit and now he's gonna cry about it. he couldn't just sit in the goddamn car and tell dabi the truth?]
You told me I had a place to go. That I was safe with you. You made somethin' feel like home for the first fuckin' time in my life and then you snatched it all away, and you're talkin' to me about abuse. The only fuckin' thing I've been sayin' to you is the truth, but you can't handle it. You think I'm bein' an asshole.
[it hurts so bad that he can barely stand it. but it doesn't matter. keigo won't ever see it like this. he wont' ever see the truth. he lets out a painful laugh when keigo says those words again. they feel like poison moving through his veins.]
Ya don't love me. Ya wouldn't've done any'a this if ya loved me. You're just tryin'a fuck with me again.
[and why should he think any different? keigo never gave him anything else. dabi died and keigo came to san junipero all sad and expecting to just talk this out as if dabi was the one who owed him anything. no explanation, no apology. no concern as to how he was doing in this lonely place after everything that happened. keigo was as selfish as ever.
he just showed up saying he needed to see him, and now keigo is the one who wont stand for this? dabi wonders if the other man was ever gonna pull his head out of his ass.]
At least that, I guess. Least you could do.
[and then none of this will matter. not him, not keigo, not anything they had been fighting for. he wonders if he'll just blink out of existence without any warning. it's something he's longed for ever since he was aware that he was born.]
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But I what?! You lied to me! Over and over again, I told you to tell me the fucking truth! I told ya I didn't trust you and swore you weren't a goddamn spy! Right to my fucking face until I believed you!
[keigo's tears anger him the most. this asshole, pulling all this shit and now he's gonna cry about it. he couldn't just sit in the goddamn car and tell dabi the truth?]
You told me I had a place to go. That I was safe with you. You made somethin' feel like home for the first fuckin' time in my life and then you snatched it all away, and you're talkin' to me about abuse. The only fuckin' thing I've been sayin' to you is the truth, but you can't handle it. You think I'm bein' an asshole.
[it hurts so bad that he can barely stand it. but it doesn't matter. keigo won't ever see it like this. he wont' ever see the truth. he lets out a painful laugh when keigo says those words again. they feel like poison moving through his veins.]
Ya don't love me. Ya wouldn't've done any'a this if ya loved me. You're just tryin'a fuck with me again.
[and why should he think any different? keigo never gave him anything else. dabi died and keigo came to san junipero all sad and expecting to just talk this out as if dabi was the one who owed him anything. no explanation, no apology. no concern as to how he was doing in this lonely place after everything that happened. keigo was as selfish as ever.
he just showed up saying he needed to see him, and now keigo is the one who wont stand for this? dabi wonders if the other man was ever gonna pull his head out of his ass.]
At least that, I guess. Least you could do.
[and then none of this will matter. not him, not keigo, not anything they had been fighting for. he wonders if he'll just blink out of existence without any warning. it's something he's longed for ever since he was aware that he was born.]
Was it worth it, Kei? Didja save the world?