[coming to admit everything in detail hurts, makes it so impossible to breathe. he wants to completely forget his torture, to soothe dabi through his. he wants to pick up these broken pieces of their lives and fix it all.

keigo finds himself shaking his head, unsure how endeavor ever discovered the relationship between him and dabi. he’s not sure how his handlers knew of it either. there’s someone who definitely had watched them, even though keigo generally kept an eye out for nosy voyeurs.

it was more than watching them once or twice too. both the hero commission and endeavor knew to exploit dabi to get keigo to kneel.

they had to have even known keigo would run away if dabi had agreed to it. why else would they have made that deal to the former hero before?

keigo snaps from his thoughts quickly to see dabi bury his head and tug at his own hair. it’s the angry words that still him though, with the darker parts of his mind that agree immediately with the other male.

you deserved it. you created this. it’s all your fault.

he tries to argue with himself, that he didn’t know or understand the extent of what endeavor was capable of, that he trusted his own handlers to keep their promise about not killing dabi or harming his mother. but his inner thoughts don’t let up, shattering his resolve to fix what he broke.

he was useless.

the hand that previously held dabi’s ankle releases, laying limp at his side.]

...You’re right.

[he says it softly.]

I can’t go back in time and stop myself. But I can hold off Endeavor right now until an opportunity arises to end him.