But, I’m kind of your weirdo now, right? And even if you or the world doesn’t think you’re perfect, you’re perfect to me. And yeah, I got jealous of them. It’s part of the reason I didn’t give them your number. That, and I really do believe they shouldn’t go through me to get to you.
I never told you cause I thought you’d find it awkward or weird that I like you like that.
You can protect me by being in my agency and my partner. Or at least bring me fried chicken once a month.
I know you might mess up, but you would still be perfect for me. You're human, after all. And humans make bad choices. I'll never ever think less of you.
I wasn't really sure. I never thought I was good enough for you. But, I'm glad I know better know, and that I get to have you and be with you.
Well, our time together, just the two of us, doesn't have to be because of the sex partner thing. We can just do it because we want to. I would like to do it often, before and after what this place is making us do. I want to have sex with you cause I like you, Touya.
you thought you weren't good enough for me?? are you crazy? it's totally the other way around. the very first day we met i already messed everything up for you and. god, keigo. you're the perfect one. and one day you're gonna wake up and realize how screwed up everything with me is and you're gonna resent me. you even talk about protecting me and changing what you wanna do for me and i'm not worth it. i'm really not.
Of course not. I don't even call you Touya in front of them.
I think it's me who doesn't deserve you, Touya.
You're making my feathers fall out, Touya. Just reading that you think I'm perfect gave me goosebumps. Anyway, I don't feel like I'm screwing up at all with you. I see someone who looks at me the way I look at them. I'll never, ever resent you. I've been with you all this time, and I don't know, I just feel like whatever is here, it continues to grow between us.
Can we be more than that? Like, more than best friends?
I guess so. But I can be number one if it means keeping your dad away from you.
i don't understand how you can possibly even think that.
i wish i could see things the way you do. that already makes you so much better. and. i dunno. sometimes i just think you're crazy for seeing me this way and it's hard for me to get over that. it's hard for me to get over what my dad says.
we'll get in trouble, kei.
i don't want you to be number one just so you can keep my dad away from me. don't do that.
that doesn't make any sense, keigo. since i've gotten here all i've done is cause you trouble. but you? you've been like this light. you make me forget about everything. even the other kids look at me like i'm some kinda ugly, burnt up weirdo, but you never do. i don't do anything but fail. how could you possibly think the other way around?
my dad is pretty much in charge so it feels like it doesn't matter. it always feels like that for me.
Touya, you're so hard on yourself. What the other kids see is a powerful hero training to be the best he can be. They're so envious of you. You're far from ugly. I think you're beautiful. Like I'm a light for you, you're the same for me. I would do anything for you.
That's quitter talk. Don't let him get to you. I'll hold your hand every step of the way.
I'll protect you. But, if it's too much, we can make it just about sex. I want you to be comfortable.
Would you do anything if my handlers forced me to have sex with villains in order to get closer to them or make them give up intel?
i don't know if i'm training to be the best i can be. sometimes i feel like i just don't know anymore. but when i see you, i feel like i can be. i just dont understand how i do any of that for you.
i'll try, but i've never been very good at that. especially when he comes and ruins it all.
but i like you too, keigo.
yeah. i'd do anything, of course i would. i don't want you to have to do that.
Then keep your eyes on me, if it helps. That's why I always keep mine on you. And, well, you're this strong force that's always there for me. You fight so hard when we train together. You help me when we're doing school work. When I have a nightmare, you hold me. You just mean so much to me.
It's been awhile since he's been here though, right? And, if he does show up, I'll hold your hand then too.
My feathers all fell out reading that, Touya. Now there's a mess in our room. But, that makes me happy reading that. Still, you should be comfortable with what we do. A relationship is about working together at the same pace.
Now you see how I feel when it comes to your dad trying to get you after we graduate. I'll do anything to keep him away from you.
i didnt even realize. i guess i thought you were only doing those things for me. you're right, i'm a bird brain too.
he was here last week.
kei, i'm making you lose all your feathers! that's terrible! maybe we can figure this out slowly then. together. i mean, aside from the stuff we have to do for the program.
i should be stronger. i should be able to deal with it myself. you shouldn't have to, even if you want to.
If I had any feathers left, they would have come out again. I like reading these sorts of things from you. It makes me happy.
You don't need to be embarrassed around me. I'm just worried for you. What did he say?
Definitely sure.
Yeah. It sounds kind of funny, but, it kind of makes sense, right? Like, for now, the sex is just something to do to get prepared for them to watch. And, I hear it's relieving a bit? If after we're done with the class, if you wanna slow it down, we can do that too. But, um, can I pretend we're maybe something more during the first time? I'm a little nervous. And, I want it to be extra special, because you're there to take my virginity.
He's only one man. And All Might is above him, isn't he? All Might would stop him. So, if I become Number One, I could stop him too.
you're such a silly little bird. don't lose all your feathers.
sometimes when he's. you know. he tells me i remind him of my mom. that i'm better than she is cause i can take it better than she can.
do you need help practicing that?
i want it to be special too, keigo. i've never had it be special before. i wanna do things slowly but i still want it to be something more than just the sex they want us to have. don't be nervous. i'll help you.
you say that cause you don't know. you didn't have to grow up with him. he's done a lot of bad things, keigo.
I like that title. But I'll try to keep all my feathers.
Oh Touya. He should never say that to you. I would do anything to get him to leave you alone, once and for all.
Sure, you can come help me practice. Just keep saying things that make me smile goofy.
I want our first time to be something you always think about. With you though, I'm sure I won't be that nervous. I trust you. And, we'll do things slowly too. We'll find a way to make it all work.
Maybe I should tell you about my childhood. I've been around a lot of bad people too. Your dad is a different kind of bad, but mine was rotten too. I'm not going to be like him. I want to protect something dear and close to me, and that's you.
i gave him what he wanted. he'll stay away for a while now, i hope.
what's the difference between when they fall out when you fret, or when you're just being all bashful?
i want our first time to be something you always think about too. something special and not just cause they tell us we need to. thanks, keigo. thanks for trying to make it work. i'm sorry i'm so darn weird about sex.
i want you to tell me. just maybe not like this. i feel like a lot of this stuff we should be talking about face to face. i just know how different it is when men with great power are bad.
Yeah. I like bird nicknames I guess. Ah. But don't tell anyone.
Touya...Well. I really hope he does. But, let me know if he comes again, okay?
If they're used during training, like when I fight, I really can't attached them back on. I lose my focus with them because I spent so much time using them to protect or fight with. But, with fretting or when I get bashful, I can focus on them more. I'm starting to be able to feel more with them too. Like, I can pick up when someone touches them, even if they're not attached to my wing.
I know I'll always think about it, cause you'll be here. I definitely don't want them to see us on our first time. Honestly, I just wanna pass the stupid thing and not be forced to do it over and over again for them. I only want you to see me during sex. And you're not weird at all. I'll respect your boundaries. I want us to do stuff right, even if we're doing it kind of backwards with the whole sex thing.
I'll tell you everything in person. It's a bit much to unpack here anyway. I guess we should have waited until you got back to the room to talk about stuff.
I won't. these are our special nicknames for each other.
I don't want you involved with him. the further away he stays from you the better. besides, I'm used to it.
that's so cool. so if I touch them you can feel them even if we're across the room or something? maybe eventually you won't even have to concentrate so hard.
what do we have to do for actual training? I want what we do together to be different than that. different from everything.
it's okay. I still wanted to talk to you anyway. this class is so boring.
Can you at least come to me after? I know you don’t want me around him, but I don’t like you suffering alone.
Yeah. They’re super sensitive, like one of my handlers touched it and I got really hot in my face. I don’t like it when they touch me, but you’re different. I like it when you touch them. And clean them!
From the guidelines, you’re supposed to act like a villain while I seduce you. I have to use my mouth to make you orgasm first. And then we have intercourse.
my favorite nickname for you is still Kei, though. it's so pretty.
...i wanted to be alone. i don't want people to see me after he does things to me. i'm dirty and disgusting.
you should sharpen them when they try to touch them. maybe now that we're sex partners they won't touch them as much. maybe.
they're just gonna watch us do that?? do they really think you're gonna use your mouth on a villain? that's so stupid! why would you even be in that position? and how am i supposed to act like a villain? that's crazy.
You're not dirty or disgusting, Touya. I just want to be there for you, is all. You shouldn't have to burden everything.
I really hope they don't touch me much or at all while we do that class. Or maybe ever again. I only want you to touch me.
I'm not even sure how I would go about doing that to a villain. Like, why would a villain want that? Does it feel good for them or something? Wouldn't they be worried I'd bite it off? But, maybe we can try to make you sound like a villain sometime? I might just laugh though.
Should we bug the handlers into giving us all the same classes.
but i am. i don't want you to look at me either. i don't want you to ever see that again.
you only want me to touch you? are you sure? there are a lot of other people you could be with, you know.
no villain would ever want to be with a pro-hero. like why would they even go there, right? that's why i feel like this is such BS, kei. i could never sound like a villain!
Well, when you say it, it makes me feel warm. In my chest. And I always smile. Unless you're teasing me about something, then I'm usually plotting how to get back at you with tickles.
You're not. Not at all. What if, after you cleaned up? I just want to make sure you're doing alright. I'm useless now and can't stop him yet, but I can at least comfort you.
I don't want anyone else. I just want you to touch me.
Would it help if I pretended to be the villain? I can try and act mean. And you can be the hero who stops me.
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But, I’m kind of your weirdo now, right? And even if you or the world doesn’t think you’re perfect, you’re perfect to me. And yeah, I got jealous of them. It’s part of the reason I didn’t give them your number. That, and I really do believe they shouldn’t go through me to get to you.
I never told you cause I thought you’d find it awkward or weird that I like you like that.
You can protect me by being in my agency and my partner. Or at least bring me fried chicken once a month.
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yeah, you're totally my weirdo. i shouldn't be perfect to you, though. cause i know i'll mess up and then. i dunno. it'll be bad.
didn't you know i wouldn't wanna be with them anyways? that's like. not even my thing. i'm only even gonna be your sex partner cause you're you.
i wish you would have told me before. like, before it had to be only about sex partners.
i think my dad will kill me if i'm not number one.
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I know you might mess up, but you would still be perfect for me. You're human, after all. And humans make bad choices. I'll never ever think less of you.
I wasn't really sure. I never thought I was good enough for you. But, I'm glad I know better know, and that I get to have you and be with you.
Well, our time together, just the two of us, doesn't have to be because of the sex partner thing. We can just do it because we want to. I would like to do it often, before and after what this place is making us do. I want to have sex with you cause I like you, Touya.
Do you want to be number one?
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i don't deserve you, keigo.
you thought you weren't good enough for me?? are you crazy? it's totally the other way around. the very first day we met i already messed everything up for you and. god, keigo. you're the perfect one. and one day you're gonna wake up and realize how screwed up everything with me is and you're gonna resent me. you even talk about protecting me and changing what you wanna do for me and i'm not worth it. i'm really not.
just sex?
no. but neither do you.
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I think it's me who doesn't deserve you, Touya.
You're making my feathers fall out, Touya. Just reading that you think I'm perfect gave me goosebumps. Anyway, I don't feel like I'm screwing up at all with you. I see someone who looks at me the way I look at them. I'll never, ever resent you. I've been with you all this time, and I don't know, I just feel like whatever is here, it continues to grow between us.
Can we be more than that? Like, more than best friends?
I guess so. But I can be number one if it means keeping your dad away from you.
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i don't understand how you can possibly even think that.
i wish i could see things the way you do. that already makes you so much better. and. i dunno. sometimes i just think you're crazy for seeing me this way and it's hard for me to get over that. it's hard for me to get over what my dad says.
we'll get in trouble, kei.
i don't want you to be number one just so you can keep my dad away from me. don't do that.
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I think that's my line towards your belief of me.
Maybe I am crazy, but it's just how I see things and how I feel. I'm going to change the way you think, because your dad is wrong.
Doesn't that make it worth it?
I guess I could become an antihero and kidnap you.
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that doesn't make any sense, keigo. since i've gotten here all i've done is cause you trouble. but you? you've been like this light. you make me forget about everything. even the other kids look at me like i'm some kinda ugly, burnt up weirdo, but you never do. i don't do anything but fail. how could you possibly think the other way around?
my dad is pretty much in charge so it feels like it doesn't matter. it always feels like that for me.
it makes me scared.
come on, kei. don't be silly.
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That's quitter talk. Don't let him get to you. I'll hold your hand every step of the way.
I'll protect you. But, if it's too much, we can make it just about sex. I want you to be comfortable.
Would you do anything if my handlers forced me to have sex with villains in order to get closer to them or make them give up intel?
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i'll try, but i've never been very good at that. especially when he comes and ruins it all.
but i like you too, keigo.
yeah. i'd do anything, of course i would. i don't want you to have to do that.
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It's been awhile since he's been here though, right? And, if he does show up, I'll hold your hand then too.
My feathers all fell out reading that, Touya. Now there's a mess in our room. But, that makes me happy reading that. Still, you should be comfortable with what we do. A relationship is about working together at the same pace.
Now you see how I feel when it comes to your dad trying to get you after we graduate. I'll do anything to keep him away from you.
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i didnt even realize. i guess i thought you were only doing those things for me. you're right, i'm a bird brain too.
he was here last week.
kei, i'm making you lose all your feathers! that's terrible!
maybe we can figure this out slowly then. together. i mean, aside from the stuff we have to do for the program.
i should be stronger. i should be able to deal with it myself. you shouldn't have to, even if you want to.
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He was here last week? Touya, are you okay? Why didn't you tell me?
It's okay about the feathers. I've been trying to learn to put them back on after I use them.
And yeah, we can take our time together. I would like that a lot.
I should be stronger too. What kind of hero can't protect the ones they care about? Just, let me help you. Please?
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i was embarrassed. he was saying weird things to me. i didn't wanna weird you out.
are you sure??
so we can try to be together slowly? but... have sex so that we dont have to have it while they watch us the first time.
i dont know, keigo. you don't know the things he can do. he can ruin you if he really wants to.
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You don't need to be embarrassed around me. I'm just worried for you. What did he say?
Definitely sure.
Yeah. It sounds kind of funny, but, it kind of makes sense, right? Like, for now, the sex is just something to do to get prepared for them to watch. And, I hear it's relieving a bit? If after we're done with the class, if you wanna slow it down, we can do that too. But, um, can I pretend we're maybe something more during the first time? I'm a little nervous. And, I want it to be extra special, because you're there to take my virginity.
He's only one man. And All Might is above him, isn't he? All Might would stop him. So, if I become Number One, I could stop him too.
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sometimes when he's. you know. he tells me i remind him of my mom. that i'm better than she is cause i can take it better than she can.
do you need help practicing that?
i want it to be special too, keigo. i've never had it be special before. i wanna do things slowly but i still want it to be something more than just the sex they want us to have. don't be nervous. i'll help you.
you say that cause you don't know. you didn't have to grow up with him. he's done a lot of bad things, keigo.
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Oh Touya. He should never say that to you. I would do anything to get him to leave you alone, once and for all.
Sure, you can come help me practice. Just keep saying things that make me smile goofy.
I want our first time to be something you always think about. With you though, I'm sure I won't be that nervous. I trust you. And, we'll do things slowly too. We'll find a way to make it all work.
Maybe I should tell you about my childhood. I've been around a lot of bad people too. Your dad is a different kind of bad, but mine was rotten too. I'm not going to be like him. I want to protect something dear and close to me, and that's you.
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i gave him what he wanted. he'll stay away for a while now, i hope.
what's the difference between when they fall out when you fret, or when you're just being all bashful?
i want our first time to be something you always think about too. something special and not just cause they tell us we need to. thanks, keigo. thanks for trying to make it work. i'm sorry i'm so darn weird about sex.
i want you to tell me. just maybe not like this. i feel like a lot of this stuff we should be talking about face to face. i just know how different it is when men with great power are bad.
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Touya...Well. I really hope he does. But, let me know if he comes again, okay?
If they're used during training, like when I fight, I really can't attached them back on. I lose my focus with them because I spent so much time using them to protect or fight with. But, with fretting or when I get bashful, I can focus on them more. I'm starting to be able to feel more with them too. Like, I can pick up when someone touches them, even if they're not attached to my wing.
I know I'll always think about it, cause you'll be here. I definitely don't want them to see us on our first time. Honestly, I just wanna pass the stupid thing and not be forced to do it over and over again for them. I only want you to see me during sex. And you're not weird at all. I'll respect your boundaries. I want us to do stuff right, even if we're doing it kind of backwards with the whole sex thing.
I'll tell you everything in person. It's a bit much to unpack here anyway. I guess we should have waited until you got back to the room to talk about stuff.
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I don't want you involved with him. the further away he stays from you the better. besides, I'm used to it.
that's so cool. so if I touch them you can feel them even if we're across the room or something? maybe eventually you won't even have to concentrate so hard.
what do we have to do for actual training? I want what we do together to be different than that. different from everything.
it's okay. I still wanted to talk to you anyway. this class is so boring.
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Can you at least come to me after? I know you don’t want me around him, but I don’t like you suffering alone.
Yeah. They’re super sensitive, like one of my handlers touched it and I got really hot in my face. I don’t like it when they touch me, but you’re different. I like it when you touch them. And clean them!
From the guidelines, you’re supposed to act like a villain while I seduce you. I have to use my mouth to make you orgasm first. And then we have intercourse.
I wish all our classes were the same.
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...i wanted to be alone. i don't want people to see me after he does things to me. i'm dirty and disgusting.
you should sharpen them when they try to touch them. maybe now that we're sex partners they won't touch them as much. maybe.
they're just gonna watch us do that?? do they really think you're gonna use your mouth on a villain? that's so stupid! why would you even be in that position? and how am i supposed to act like a villain? that's crazy.
me too. the ones without you are the woooorst.
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You're not dirty or disgusting, Touya. I just want to be there for you, is all. You shouldn't have to burden everything.
I really hope they don't touch me much or at all while we do that class. Or maybe ever again. I only want you to touch me.
I'm not even sure how I would go about doing that to a villain. Like, why would a villain want that? Does it feel good for them or something? Wouldn't they be worried I'd bite it off? But, maybe we can try to make you sound like a villain sometime? I might just laugh though.
Should we bug the handlers into giving us all the same classes.
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but i am. i don't want you to look at me either. i don't want you to ever see that again.
you only want me to touch you? are you sure? there are a lot of other people you could be with, you know.
no villain would ever want to be with a pro-hero. like why would they even go there, right? that's why i feel like this is such BS, kei. i could never sound like a villain!
we could try!
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You're not. Not at all. What if, after you cleaned up? I just want to make sure you're doing alright. I'm useless now and can't stop him yet, but I can at least comfort you.
I don't want anyone else. I just want you to touch me.
Would it help if I pretended to be the villain? I can try and act mean. And you can be the hero who stops me.
Okay, let's do it!
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