I don’t think so. We can still sleep separately from each other. I only usually crawl into your bed after nightmares. Unless you wanna sleep together?
Not sure. They’re older though. And, hmm, I don’t know. I used to look up to your dad, but that was before I knew him for what he is. Who would you choose?
i dunno. guess we'll have to see about that too. but i don't mind it when you crawl into my bed after a nightmare. as long as you ask, which you always do.
they wouldn't believe it even if i told them. they all just see what they wanna see. i bet half the kids here look up to him and they wanna be like him. even you were like that. you thought he was this amazing hero
i dont wanna do this anymore. i need to get out of here.
[ he doesn't respond, and he considers going the complete opposite way so he doesn't have to see keigo, but then he feels bad and he heads there anyway, sneaking out to go meet by the tree.
he hides behind it, trying not to cry, but he finds himself wiping away at his tears angrily anyway. ]
[keigo is desperately worried as he leaves in a hurry. he’s not sure what happened at all, but he needs to make sure touya was safe, first and foremost.
it’s easy to go outside, no teachers or handlers noticing. as long as they were together though, then they were following the rules. with the use of his wings, keigo rushes to the tree he recommended, going around to the back where he sees touya crying.]
Tou, what happened? Did you get hurt?
[it’s impossible to keep the worry away. what could have happened??]
[ he hears the flap of wings before he sees keigo, so he gives up on wiping away his tears because he can't stop anyway. he's so angry though. he feels like he's always angry lately. ]
I'm not hurt!
[he snaps, but then he feels bad about that too, so he moves away and sits down by the base of the tree, covering his head with his hands as he draws his knees up.]
[the snap has keigo tensing, foot taking a step back. it’s not touya’s fault for the reaction either. there’s just some things keigo can’t block from his childhood just yet.
his body comes to relax though, as touya goes and sits down. he follows, taking a seat in front of his friend.]
[ he doesn't look at keigo at all. he just keeps his head down and his fingers digging into his hair. ]
A hero... yeah, right. Is that really what they're teaching us to be? And then what? We get to work with pro-heroes like my dad?? That's not being a hero.
Teaching us to be that way isn't gonna make us be heroes!
[he yells, then breaks down in tears again, dropping his head back down. he can feel his heart squeezing in his chest so tight, and the heat building up in his body so fast he can hardly control it. the only thing that helps is that keigo is holding on to him right now and he desperately doesn't want to burn his friend.]
Yeah, sure. That's what being a hero is all about. Just like my dad, right? Just like our handlers in this hero program? That's what they want us to think.
No, I’m not! You are stronger than me! You can take me out, Touya! We have a safe word cause you can take me out!
[keigo can feel the heat, and it makes him weak, but his hold doesn’t relinquish. he grips tighter, leaning in closer, even if the words touya says hurts him.]
I’m not like your dad. I’ll never be like him! Even if I’m tortured here or forced to do things I don’t want to do, if it means I can protect people, protect you, then I don’t care!
Just because I can take you out doesn't make me better or stronger! It just means I can destroy. Other people, myself. That doesn't make a hero.
[he curls his shoulders in as if trying to pull away from keigo, but it's mostly just because he can feel his heat and he's scared. even now, he isn't sure if he can be strong enough- not even to tell keigo to get away.]
Well I care! I care what happens to you! You think you're the only one who wants to protect me?? I wanna do that too, but I can't, Keigo. I can't.
[now, more than ever, keigo is confused and lost. why would they never be able to get away? they would eventually graduate and then become heroes, right? that's what keigo has been taught since the day his mother sold him to these people.]
...what more is there?
[his voice is quiet, a little scared even. but, why would there need to be more to the secret training? they just had to be able to do it with their partner of choice and that was it, right?]
I'm talking about how no matter how bad things get, we have to stay. We have nowhere else to go. And when we're done here? I'm just gonna...
[he trails off, letting out another sob, fire sparking through his fingers. he yanks himself away from keigo then, because his fear of hurting keigo overrides everything else.
he wipes at his eyes quickly, angrily, trying to pull himself back together so he can talk to keigo without catching them both on fire.]
They told me... they told me we have to act like villains. We have to be villains. We can practice with each other, yeah, but then... we have to attack other submissives. They have to attack you too. You gotta talk them down and work your way to pleasing them. It's not just gonna be me. It was never just gonna be me. And I have to do that to other kids too. I can't, Keigo... I can't. I don't wanna be like my dad. I don't wanna be a villain. I can't. I can't let everyone else do that to you. They're gonna hurt you! I wanted it to just be us!
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how long were they here before they got to intern?? which pro-hero would you want to intern with?
ugh he's asking some of us to stay even longer.
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Not sure. They’re older though. And, hmm, I don’t know. I used to look up to your dad, but that was before I knew him for what he is. Who would you choose?
Uh-oh, what’d you do, mister hero?
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i bet a lot of people still look up to him
i didnt do anything
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He is Number Two. I wish the public knew what he’s like.
Maybe the teacher wants your help?
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they wouldn't believe it even if i told them. they all just see what they wanna see. i bet half the kids here look up to him and they wanna be like him. even you were like that. you thought he was this amazing hero
i dont wanna do this anymore. i need to get out of here.
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I know. And I regret ever thinking he was this great hero. He isn’t a hero at all.
What’s going on? Did something happen with the teacher?
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fine. whatever. im leaving now
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he hides behind it, trying not to cry, but he finds himself wiping away at his tears angrily anyway. ]
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it’s easy to go outside, no teachers or handlers noticing. as long as they were together though, then they were following the rules. with the use of his wings, keigo rushes to the tree he recommended, going around to the back where he sees touya crying.]
Tou, what happened? Did you get hurt?
[it’s impossible to keep the worry away. what could have happened??]
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I'm not hurt!
[he snaps, but then he feels bad about that too, so he moves away and sits down by the base of the tree, covering his head with his hands as he draws his knees up.]
I don't wanna do this anymore.
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his body comes to relax though, as touya goes and sits down. he follows, taking a seat in front of his friend.]
Do what? You don’t wanna be a hero? Why?
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A hero... yeah, right. Is that really what they're teaching us to be? And then what? We get to work with pro-heroes like my dad?? That's not being a hero.
Teaching us to be that way isn't gonna make us be heroes!
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We don’t have to work with your dad. We’ll go elsewhere. They have to be teaching us some stuff here if the older kids are able to intern, right?
[keigo is confused. something had to have happened to touya to be like this. it wasn’t their prior conversation, was it?]
We’re gonna get super strong. We’ll protect each other.
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[and that's always been fine with touya. it's never been a competition with keigo. but keigo doesn't seem to get how any of this is gonna work.]
Half these kids are gonna try and work with my dad anyway. They have no idea. And you're stupid to think we can always protect each other. We can't!
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Stop thinking like that, Touya! I’m not better.
[he can’t help but feel hurt though, when called stupid. he can’t even hide the look in his eyes.]
It’s not stupid to think like that. I just..That’s what being a hero is all about. To protect.
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[he yells, then breaks down in tears again, dropping his head back down. he can feel his heart squeezing in his chest so tight, and the heat building up in his body so fast he can hardly control it. the only thing that helps is that keigo is holding on to him right now and he desperately doesn't want to burn his friend.]
Yeah, sure. That's what being a hero is all about. Just like my dad, right? Just like our handlers in this hero program? That's what they want us to think.
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[keigo can feel the heat, and it makes him weak, but his hold doesn’t relinquish. he grips tighter, leaning in closer, even if the words touya says hurts him.]
I’m not like your dad. I’ll never be like him! Even if I’m tortured here or forced to do things I don’t want to do, if it means I can protect people, protect you, then I don’t care!
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[he curls his shoulders in as if trying to pull away from keigo, but it's mostly just because he can feel his heat and he's scared. even now, he isn't sure if he can be strong enough- not even to tell keigo to get away.]
Well I care! I care what happens to you! You think you're the only one who wants to protect me?? I wanna do that too, but I can't, Keigo. I can't.
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[the pulling away is ignored. keigo finds himself gasping as he comes to press his forehead against touya's head. it’s so hot.]
I know you do. But I can’t just not protect you. We can’t give up. Please, Touya. You said you wanted to be a hero, didn’t you?
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[his brain is telling himself to pull away, but he can't. his foolish, weak heart won't let him.]
They didn't tell you everything about the secret training, Keigo.
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[now, more than ever, keigo is confused and lost. why would they never be able to get away? they would eventually graduate and then become heroes, right? that's what keigo has been taught since the day his mother sold him to these people.]
...what more is there?
[his voice is quiet, a little scared even. but, why would there need to be more to the secret training? they just had to be able to do it with their partner of choice and that was it, right?]
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[he trails off, letting out another sob, fire sparking through his fingers. he yanks himself away from keigo then, because his fear of hurting keigo overrides everything else.
he wipes at his eyes quickly, angrily, trying to pull himself back together so he can talk to keigo without catching them both on fire.]
They told me... they told me we have to act like villains. We have to be villains. We can practice with each other, yeah, but then... we have to attack other submissives. They have to attack you too. You gotta talk them down and work your way to pleasing them. It's not just gonna be me. It was never just gonna be me. And I have to do that to other kids too. I can't, Keigo... I can't. I don't wanna be like my dad. I don't wanna be a villain. I can't. I can't let everyone else do that to you. They're gonna hurt you! I wanted it to just be us!
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